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Monday, November 02, 2009

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 15:26:04 GMT

I think i need to write about you. maybe it's a sense of closure about me, to tell the world how wonderful you were and how you became to be a very big and significant part of my life. or maybe because i don't ever want to forget you.

coz you were never like the bfs, who come and go.
you never failed to greet me when i come home, even in the last few weeks of your life, when it was too painful for you to get up, but you would try anyway when you hear me calling. just so we could have our moment which always ends up with me lying on the floor with you lying on my belly.
although it amazed me you never lost your appetite for good human food.

at times i wonder if i put you to sleep to soon..
and hope you'll forgive me because it was too painful for me to watch you cry in pain.
how it broke my heart to watch you suffer that way...
because i know you were a strong and brave dog, and would cry only if it was unbearable...

the house is so quiet now, empty without the sound of your nails clicking on the floor.
i forget at times, how much i depended on you,
for that daily dose of furry love and manjaness...

i love you, my bestfriend, and i don't ever want to forget you.

you were the best dog a 9 year old girl could have ever asked for.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 07:33:03 GMT

last year flashed by.
it was off on a rocky start.
we can grow and change so much in a year.

i think it's safe to say, we have arrive at a place where our friendships have gotten so much more dear and meaningful. and it's never been this good.
at least that's how it feels like to me.
it feels absolutely fantastic.

partied like i've never partied before.
passed out for the first AND the ONLY time in my life.
camwhored like crazy with more camwhoring friends.
wore more dresses than i ever did in my ENTIRE LIFE.
still am stalling on career course. but will work harder this year! that is my resolution i think.
it's good k. never made one before. haha!
learned not to care so much about what people think.
life's too short to be bothered by petty things ya know?

was the year of renewed bonds with highschool mates.
made me wonder why we never did it earlier.

some things you keep for the rest of your lives.
it leaves a mark.
it becomes a part of you.

love dancing more than ever!

life is good.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 15:48:10 GMT

2 more days till the fashion show. super excited! got my fingers crossed.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 15:17:01 GMT

i have forgotten how to blog. O_o dunno what to write about.

the most exciting thing that has happened is me falling on my knees in front of a ton of people in zouk. -_-'
and the most exciting that is going to happen is my collab with jimmy lim this coming fashion week.
super excited! will show pictures! my first fashion show woo!
also christmas!
and new years!
omg it's going to be 2009!

here's an early birthday wish for you sweets!

Monday, October 13, 2008

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 15:49:10 GMT

WAH! been more than a month eh.

i made this today!

i think i will call it herbie.

i know got nothing to write my mind is blank.

blame it on yahoo games, work, parties and a pretty screwed love life.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 05:27:50 GMT

happy birthday!

to make it short and simple, our friendship means the world to me.

because you are my virgo anchor keeping my aquarian ship from getting lost. lol!

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 09:18:05 GMT

merdeka weekend was wonderful.

wish we didn't have to come back.

this scene looked incredible real life. like in a movie. ben said it looks like a giant sandcastle. kinda does actually. all the sand blowing in the wind.

had lunch with my mother yesterday at pasta zanmai our first time trying it. i was really skeptical about it. i mean, japanese pasta? so wrong. but omg the food was sooo good! we had soft shell crab pasta with sesame sauce. awesome! i am like, a full zanmai supporter now. if they sold shirts that said all hail zanmai i swear i'll buy it.

we were at starbucks in uptown a few weeks back.the corner one? and lucky enough, we were sitting inside. because there was a commotion outside and a bunch of mat rempits came, apparently banging their parangs on tables to scare people away and ran off with a laptop. i thought they were gunshots wei damn loud. we didn't see it happen though but just heard what people said and speculation. even though i didn't see it it was still quite scary. O_o leaves you feeling paranoid and not safe at all. suddenly starbucks feels dangerous. from now on i'm only gonna go to the ones in shopping malls wei. damn paranoid. O_o they damn smart though, aiming for wifi places. uptown's police station so near somemore.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 08:46:54 GMT

hola!

been a while i know. been distracted.

will blog soon. til then, i'm on mia mode.

on random note, i ain't no gold digger yo.
never have been. and never will be.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 17:51:28 GMT

so... hennessy was.. fun.

and i missed flo rida. -_-' coz i was passed out.

i WASN'T drunk k. not even tipsy. i had less than 2 drinks. i remember every single detail and i know when i'm tipsy. i felt light headed then suddenly i blacked out halfway talking to phui khei i'm so sorry must have given you quite a shock. >_< horrible feeling k the whole room was just spinning and i was breaking out in cold sweat. and i couldn't lift my head up after that. totally missed flo rida. not cool. i will steer clear off alcohol. funny because i do 99% of the time. but thank you all who took care of me really. i never felt more vulnerable. holy cow i passed out clubbing first experience ever. so important to have your close friends nearby to take care of you. otherwise i dunno what i would've done.

although hennessy can make anyone feel like a celebrity! i never had that many cameras aimed at me before.

and i really like collecting the poloroids they give out. although i read somewhere they stopped producing poloroid films. should find out more. always wanted a nice poloroid camera.

watched batman last week. OMG. AWESOME. no one have said a single bad thing about it. seriously. AWESOME. heath ledger. INSANE. must. watch. again.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 20:08:22 GMT

how do you know
when the day comes to an end
that everything was nothing but just a show?
with all the rules you were willing to bend
with you never being able to understand

turns me into something i never wanted to be
when you were everything to me
when i gave you all without hesitation
when i was always so god damn patient

and i will remain this way
until you realise i don't really want to stay...